I’m my own mystery

Friday, November 27, 2009

9:55 PM

I escaped soledad during FSD last week...
Meet new wonderful cadets but still soledad was around the corner always...
had lots of laugh....
loved every moment...

ok..going to sleep now.
nites alll...

& I cried.

3:44 AM

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come I'll relise
You're a loss I can't replace

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Time will never change the things you tols me
After all we're meant to be love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

& I cried.

9:51 PM

i'm starting to miss people in my life...
shafiq
hakim
hashim
isaac
sabi
ayang
bunk brothers
hafizah
selamat
aisha

im just a sad fuck...
haha
lonely
loner
till when?

كم أتمنى أن أستطيع محو يصب بعيدا..
أعرف أنني غير قادر على...
أنا عديمة الجدوى

& I cried.

11:01 PM

this old woman is 19..(in which i will follow suit in 7 weeks..)
hahaha...
happy bdae org tuer!!!!!!!!!

& I cried.

7:13 PM

nairidnes ukpudih asis naksibahgnem

الحياة كانت بعيدة جدا وحيدا سو...
دائما الانفاق أيامي وحدها...
دون الشركة من أي شخص باستثناء عزيزي الظل...
في أي مكان أذهب الآن ، وحدي...

الان أمشي رحلتي وحدها...
بلدي النهائية أود أخيرا وفت..
الآن للحصول على هذا الترخيص...
وأتمنى لشخص خاص لاكتساح لي بعيدا...

لقد كنت أنا شخص لا يستطيعون الحصول على المحبة..
عندما أكون أكثر منه ،
أنا غير قادر على تقديم نفسي على حب أي شخص آخر...
لماذا؟
لأن من له وحده قلبي أغلقت أبوابها؟
ط هذا الرقم غير قادر على نفسي..
بالنسبة لأولئك الذين يمكن أن نرى هذا..
تهاني..
أنت فقط مرتبطة لي الداخلية.

ومنذ يمكنك الاتصال بي داخلي لي ،
أنا أقول لك لقد 1 سنة أكثر من العيش...
الاعتزاز ما قلته...
أحبكم جميعا سو بكثير...

Where Are You Now?
i need you to make me
One Less Lonely Girl

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl

How many I told you's
And start overs and shoulders
Have you cried on before
How many promises be honest girl
How many tears you let hit the floor
How many bags you'd packed
Just to take'em back, tell me that
How many either or's
But no more,
If you let me inside of your world
There'll be one less lonely girl

Oh oh
I saw so many pretty faces
Before I saw you, you
Now all I see is you
I'm coming for you
No no
Don't need these other pretty faces
Like I need you
And when your mine in the world

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

Christmas wasn't merry, 14th of February
Not one of'em spent with you
How many dinner dates, set dinner plates
And he didn't even touch his food
How many torn photographs are you taping back
Tell me that you couldn't see an open door
But no more,
If you let me inside of your world
There'll be one less lonely girl

Oh oh
I saw so many pretty faces
Before I saw you, you
Now all I see is you
I'm coming for you
No no
Don't need these other pretty faces
Like I need you
And when your mine in this world

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I can fix up your broken heart
I can give you a brand new start
I can make you believe
I just wanna set one girl free to fall (free to fall)
She's free to fall (fall in love)
With me
My hearts locked and nowhere that I got the key
I'll take her and leave the world
With one less lonely girl

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl

One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
Only you shawty

& I cried.

1:44 PM

soo now its my fault...
ok..
i accept it...
when is it not my fault?
tyme to go out and walk around town as usual alone...
time to look at the scenery.
reminisce old memories of the place..
cry abit.
carry on walking..
walk,
walk,
walk...
till im hungry or tired..
then i go home..

who needs me?
im at esplanade..
msg..
dont call..
i wont pick up...

you despice them...
now,
you're one of them...
don't deny..
you just proved it...

& I cried.

8:52 PM

When a GIRL is quiet ...

millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ...
she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ...

she is wondering howlong you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ...

she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you ...

she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest ..

she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday...

she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' ..

she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ....

no one in this world can miss you more than
that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy ..

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
who calls you back when you hang up on him.
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who .....

Kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

& I cried.