I’m my own mystery

Saturday, November 29, 2008

10:31 AM

i welded for derek and chang..

hahah....

n i got them christmas presents!!!
hehe...

cant wait for next week...
next week is PPCDL theory AND COC parade where im the contigent 2IC...cool shit ryte?!
hahaz..

now we got new specs..
i mean specialist..

4 ppl..
Ray (SEA)
Idris (Central)
Hakim (Cadre)
Ian (Admin)

soo far i noe ray (DUH!!).
nice guy lah..
can be funny and serious..
cool.

then theres the cute one..
(IDRIS)
very small and cute..
can be cadet if he wants too...
just wear a cadet uniform and PRESTO!
hes a cadet..
hahaa..
very joker..
always ask ppl y havent go home when he himself haven ready go home..
hahahaha

then theres the funny one,
Hakim
like cartoon..
he from CSS.
funny jooker...

then ian i nvr talk to him alots...

i now not talking to 3SG Firdaus.
make me angry onie....
long story..
last week i had a few happy like bird moments...
yest aso..
hahha
my happy like bird password : *******

now fizah is a helicopter pad..
see her must sound the helicopter landing..
hhahahha..

yest in the MRT,
i disturb 3SG Idris
i touch onlie u noe..
the he sae pain..
joker lah the guy...
hahahaha

ok out then..
lazies

-AiN-

& I cried.

12:55 AM

dunno y the hell im studying
but
wtf?!

hahahha

help me feel better i guess..
dun believe i study...

wait wait...

it must be the new specs..
i got astig 50 both eyes..

hahahaha

this is a REAL pair of spectacles with degree..
hahahah

& I cried.

12:36 AM

Bold means done that;

50 most romantic things to do w/ your b/f or g/f

1. Watch the sunset together.
2. Whisper to each other.
3. Cook for each other.
4. Walk in the rain.
5. Hold hands
6. Buy gifts for each other.
7. Roses.
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time
you're together.
9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.
10. Write poetry for each other.
11. Hugs are the universal medicine.
12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!
15. Spend every second possible together.
16. Look into each other's eyes.
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you
love her, and kiss her lightly.
18. When in public, only flirt with each other.
19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.
20. Buy her a ring.
21. Sing to each other.
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.
24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
26. Dance together.
27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap.
28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.
31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.
32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.
34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
37. Hang out with his/her friends.
38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.
40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.
41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.
42. Make sacrifices for each other.
43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.
44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.
45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.
47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, 'Sweet dreams.'

& I cried.

8:37 PM

Let me post this question...

WHY DO I BRIGHTHEN EVRYONES DAY BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE I DID ANYTHING TO DO IT???

i dunno y but people actullie do feel brigthen up when they see me..

confused???=_=

hahaha...

i need a shine in my life..
i think i found it..
BUT..
i'll be losing it VERY VERY SOON...
=(((((

haiz...

now im specky..
GAWD...
i GOT ASTIG!!!!!!

i now need to wear glasses when...

reading
comping
psping
nitendoing
tving

haha
life
i miss sumone but dunno who...

& I cried.

2:01 AM

my first night over at hq as CSO happen on 13 nov 08 after te Officer cadet course.

the DO was Derek and DA was ah hock...

the DO was gay...and i was surrounded by gays that nite..

after most of the pplz left,

i decided to make uncle chang dereks bitch...
he kung fued me in the office and try to make me dereks bitch..
in the end we gave up.

i went to bathe..
then went to order max...
eat eat eat until happy like bird in IMC...
then,
derek hovered a fries at victors nose,
then he shoved it in..
no reaction...

a few mins later...

OI!!!DONT WASTE STRAW!!

ahahz...
damn cute siah..

then after dat we go office sleep...then the gay ritual started..
hehe..
kinda funny..

i woke up at 8 +++ when uncle chang woke me up..
kkekekek

& I cried.

1:02 AM

i have never been soo insulted in my life as a human being...

really..
like wad hafiz wrote,
"limits does exist"

which is true lah..
i support you and u giv me this cock attitude?

YOU CALL US FAMILY AND WHEN THERES AN OUTING I WASN'T INVITED????

and suddenly im a pariah..
ok what..
just forget it...
READ THIS...

I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ON WHAT YOU PEOPLE WANT TO DO..JUST LEAVE ME OUT CAUSE YOU DONT DESERVE ME AS MUCH AS I DESERVE YOU...

AND

dont go around bitching bout me and saying that i have a prob bcoz it you guyz dat have the prob and go solve it...don't add all you freaking nonsense to all the seniors as they as ADULTS have more things to thing of other you people...

oh man get a life for goodness sake!!!!
you guys are just dragging each other probs around and all you guys do is talk but no action..

i know i shudden be doing this but you gu have to see the picture man...
i kinda feel disgusted sumtymes but WTF ,bcoz i thnk of u guys as FAMILY, i actully shrug it off...

call me bitch if you want, but we now not on the same parr..you guys are getting immature by the day and theres more nonsense around then there are of you.

soo make up you BLOODY IDEAS on what is gonna happen in your life...
and for goodness sake,
try and rmember your ages..
this PROBS you guys are having is for ppl whu cant think and may be around pri 5 6??

until you make up your BLOODY IDEAS,
count me out of CWS...

Here i say,

I RESIGN FROM HAVING ANY CONNECTIONS WITH YOU GUYS TILL YOU GUYS GIVE ME A GOOD BLOODY IDEA WHY I MUST BE IN.

& I cried.

11:22 PM

i miss writting

but i dun ahve anithing to write

& I cried.