I’m my own mystery
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
9:57 PM

im backs!!!
from SPEC COURSE...
sick...
hahahha

yeah..
fun..
ANGGARZTECK!!!
=D

why?
of ppl ME...

& I cried.

Saturday, June 20, 2009
12:06 AM

where did i turn wrong?
was it that night?
which i made my life a living hell...
telling him everything..
pouring my hearts out..
making the earth open up
and as time goes by,
the gap gets soo big the the it creates 2 separate worlds...
i couldn't even talk to you..
yes there was sumthing wrong...
but i was suprised that you not who i know last time...
i didn't know when 2 important people in my life has sumone else in their life,
i'm nobody till the day they need me again...
why must i be the nice guy?
why do always forgive?
why am i being unfair to myself?
i dunno why....

i hope you know who you are..
i didn't know seeing you again would make me cry...
im sorry...
i didnt know i haven't let go...

& I cried.

Friday, June 19, 2009
11:58 PM

i'm the Que master for adventure team ncc day parade performance..
yes i cried...
why?
because..
I HATE EMPTY PROMISES!
i was promise a bounce...
and in the end...
i lose out on everything i wanted...
i didn't get to be sea guard commander...
i didn't get to do rappelling..
all i am doin is FUCKING STAND THERE AND TELL THE OTHER WHEN TO GO!!!
wad ever happen to all the hard work i put in and all the word that was promised to me?
wad bout my swollen feet and knees bcoz of all the training..
wad about all the time i spent weven when i sick?
what about all the lessons i missed?
what about all the lies i told?
i scarified all this and i dont get even a good thing in return...
i get scolded...
i get pushed beyond my limits...
i further injured my knee...
for a GOD DAMN FUCKING CHEE BAI POST!!!

i'm not going anymore..
i want out...

& I cried.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009
9:52 PM

HAPPY BDAE ANOR!!!!!!!!!!
my Lil Sis!
14 liao!


Sun Burned

My Winning Cards...



Mermaid That we Caught! Go wildboars!
The Fish

Boat Mateys

Rein Mermaid that was caught by Ira...

Wildboar Mascot..

AKE was damn fun..
except for some fucked up people..
who cant accept the fact that the OIC is a 54th..
actually fact its just 1 guy..
nice guy ruined by a a ego soo big that makes him soo not the great guy i know...
thing are goin well for me...
thats for sure..
tired..
gonna sleep now...

& I cried.

Friday, June 12, 2009
12:51 AM

sadded when ppl dun rmbr his dae..hahahah

today...
since i didn't blog past 2 days....
is dedicated to SOOL!!!!
hahaha..
turned 91 on the 10...
hahahha....
old man growing younger each day!



CD course was fun with the instructors the cadets were..
PHEW!!!
gave them stern warning about meeting me in hq...

lepak with hanna today....
when to SSC wid her awhile...
oklah...
had fun n shared many stuffs...
hehehe

& I cried.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009
4:34 PM

i'm now at PERSISI...
typing all this down...

helo world..
i know i've been emo this few days..
well...
a few things have happen this few weeks
and its taking a toll...
thats all i can say..
now im goin off to swim...
need to burn some fats and release loads of stress..

& I cried.

Monday, June 8, 2009
10:05 PM


my head is spliting..
its either i explode or i just die coz i hurts soo much....
it hurts till my jaw hurts..
my knees go weak...
i just gonna die in my world alone...


why do i have to face this all alone? im sick of tired of being alone... everyone has someone... why must i always be the only one? a broken heart never heals fully... even though it was broken 3 years ago... i still feel the pain...


the only reason i'm being me
i want to find another you..
who'll love me as i am...
fat
ugly
noisy
naughty
where are you?



& I cried.

Saturday, June 6, 2009
11:05 PM

song is dedicated to dearest bf...
(at my music player)
enjoy...

Westlife(feat. Mariah Carey)
Against All Odds

[Shane:]
How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave without a trace,
When I'm standing taking every breath,
With you, ooohhh,
You're the only one who really knew me,
At all.

[Mariah:]
How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave,
Cause we shared the laughter and the pain,
And even shared the tears,
You're the only one who really knew me at all.

So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
If you're coming back to me it's against all odds,
And that's what I've got to face.

[Mark:]
I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry,
There's so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why,
You're the only one who really knew me at all.

[Mariah:]
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
So there's just an empty space,
But to wait for you is all I can do,
When that's what I've got to face.

Take a good look at me now,
Cause I'll be standing here,
([Mark:] Standing here)
And you coming back to me is against all odds,
And that's the chance I've got to take.

[Westlife:]
Got to take
Got to take

[Mariah:]
Ooh
Take a look at me now

[Westlife:]
Take a look at me now.

ndp-ing today
didnt bring rank soo became s/clt for a day
hahhaha

& I cried.

Friday, June 5, 2009
12:12 AM

how i wish we were like this again...laughing laughing laughing...

love this pic

you have to witness this yourself to feel sumthing stirring

those were the days

to idiots that i always miss n is always getting into trouble sumwhere n worry me

a great meal after losing my fight..at last!

a super duper girl whu is sorely missed (we got separated coz of sum grown up things)

tattooed

super duper ouchy

lil bro whu joined the club on 090309

ok lots of pics to ease the mind...
i need distractions...

& I cried.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009
5:56 PM






new skin..
new tagline
new song..

anything else new?
nothing...
hahha

ok outs!

& I cried.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009
9:23 PM

i was literally asked nicely by sumone to follow the sumone to sumwhere to meet a certain sumone which i also noe and it was very akward cause there where 3 of us and i was kinda jealous being the only single there..hahaha..hey sumone i already told you i dont wanna come...disturb both your time together..and i'm not following you next time cause i very hmmmm...like dat ah...hahahhahhahahahhaha


Faber Drive
Tongue Tied

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

i'm sorry baby this have to be this way...
i'm not someone who easily loves...
and
i'm won't be the one to break your heart...
i care for you dearly...
but only as sister who cares for a brother...
i'm sorry baby if i've been givin you hope...
didn't know it was wrong to care too much...
sorry i let you down again...

& I cried.

Monday, June 1, 2009
11:38 PM








tired
lonely
sad
aching
hurting
crying
broken


and nothing can fix it...

& I cried.

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