I’m my own mystery

Saturday, February 28, 2009

1:44 PM

ok..this is posted by a person whu just woke up...
GOOD AFTERNOON WORLD!!!!
hahaha..
had a bunch of weird dreams..
very weird...
well im not gonna share cause i have to find out wad it means first....
yeah..
soo yeah..
"supposed" to get my things just now but then....
like i said i just woke up..
hahahaha...
was busy consoling birthday boy in the morn...
and also boyfriend..
INGAT!!
HIDOP MESTI MAU RILAX JACK!
haha...
hhaha

& I cried.

2:20 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO mikaH!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

happy birthday to mikaH!!!
finally 18 siah...
haha..

& I cried.

2:17 AM

yesterday morning....

i went swimming with ponyo...
then we go hq for forum...
then go cohesion nite...
then go watch movie...
then lepaks...
then go home..
dead

& I cried.

2:13 AM

farking hell....
but seriously farking hell...
never i wanted anything like this to happen..
gosh...
never knew im a bad person...
haiz...
ain you are one farking bastard...
seriously...
you shud just kill yourself...
yeah..
you shud...

farking hell...
ain sucks!!

& I cried.

11:47 PM

SGT Ray msged me..

Him: U comin 4 trainfire today?
Me:need me there? enough people?
Him: I duno leh..got 8 unit coming down..then both our officer kana arrow away..so me only
Me:how many clt got?
Him:I duno..its not confirm one..like 3 or 4?
Me:ok.then i come down later
Him:orh k thx..unless u busy..ok cu later

i den take out my MSG shirt and take out the rank...
i can wear lorhs!!!
hahahahaha

den i go lorhs..
when late..
hehe
sabi larhs..
ppl call her she never reply..
then i RUSHED down to her place coz i dun have her house nm...
haiz...
then we cabbed down...

today suay siah...
first late...
then got kid cut the hand...
then my PSP screen crack...
then i go eat with my makciks...
then i go home...
then now am here typing...

& I cried.

9:51 AM

today,woke up to this...

whack! whack! whack!

the i wake up...
then i sit down..
then i msged sentosa...
then i see bruises on me...
then i go wash the dishes..
then i go lie own on the front sofa bed..
the my mother go out...
then i rot somemore...
then i come to my room...
then i rot sumore with my lappy on my lap and typing all this thens...

& I cried.

11:03 PM

woke up to the sound of noises...
as usual...

while i was sleeping,
my mother was like screaming to dunno whu (which turned out to be setan kecik)
she was like,
mama:abeh duer2 tdo!mane mama tau bukak!!(den both sleeping how i noe how to open?)
noise:wuek wuek wuek
mama: kalao kau nk kau gy kejot kak ain kau lah..tgnk der nk bangon tk!(if you want you go wake up ain,see if she wanna wake up anot.)

then when i finally woke up(hehe),
i asked my mum wad is the commotion about..
it was about how to on the PSP..
haiya....
wad onlie...
hahaha...

then did all the usual stuff...
sent lil matrep to school then i made my way to school...
to pay my mel camp..
asked hakim if he free...
go lepak...
as i was in the area...
then capt savio not there..
haiya....
then i proceeded to JVSS...
to meet the guys and lepak with them..
their ncc room damn big and they also have the live range chamber to temselves..
cool shit or wad...
hahaha..

then we go kfc to lepak ahwhile n dinner...
then nana reached jp...
haha..
i still eating lorhs..
haha...
then sentosa walked me to the mrt n we talked bout you know who and some other stuffs...
then i met nana...

then go to kak yatis place...
haiz...
ryfan was damn cute!!!
haha...
we ate murtabak maggi...
and i started to teach haziq!
hehe...

haziq,ryna,atika

damn cute ryte?ryfan hadi

blur

me and nephew..

then we walked to lakeside to catch the train...
then go home we went to 888 to go to mcdonald..
but..
THERE's no MCDONALDS THERE!!!
hahaha...
then we cabbed to Sunplaza Mac...
bought sundaes and when home...
i was sitting on my bed with my lappy and i feel asleep...
haha...
then i sae nites to al at msn then i slept...

try is a good word as of now..
cant promise results but i will TRY to treat him as anyone else in life....

& I cried.

9:56 PM

tired today..
very tired...
stupid farked up non-commisioned officers shud be ignored n forgotten...

today,
C/LTA Siti Aindinna Rooslee S91*****J,
has finally when for her first ever live range after passing out as a Cadet Officer on the 10 of december 2007....
haha..
damn fun lorh*at first...
den i did scoring...
one point of time,
detail 3 to be exact,
i accidently mixed up the scoring papers...
then ended up giving 2 SCHOOL AIR RIFLE SHOOTERS 2 lesser point...
yala i noe i did sumthing wrong,
but then,
thats not the point..
the point is,
i already said sorry...
if you lose it,
i will be farking losing it more becoz farking hate you face and your farking attitude!!!
then ppl smile when they stress don't they?
if you not happy,
then wad?
wanna f me from behind?
stupid siah..
but i became angsty...
damn angsty..
i was cursing and swearing like evry single second on my way out and while waiting for the bus...
serious siah..
will the parents be sueing you just becoz of 2 marks?
the kids also farking cock,
they say the got 11 point!!
thats like a freakinh lie..
they onl got 9!!
that was what made me angry..
the spec say he saw 5 & 4..
not 5 & 6..
bcoz of that i kena!
then that stupid ***** go angkat bola...
stupid
go die lah them...
dun care...

then we met sentosa,hitman and few more..
which were,
khairi,
asnita,
asila,
wei hao,
jun wei
and....
i dunno y 644724 was there...
i was shocked...
he never say hes gonna be there...
nemind...
then me and saggy go buy food..
come back he gone...
nemind...
then make fwen wit sentosa's bro,
mr chan...
haha....
then giggs n 644724 came...
then hitman n sentosa played dead or alive,
i think lah the name of the game..
it was super gory and gave me a bad head...
then he sat the the end of me..
soo i just msged him when i had anything to say ah...
so now im home...
sore and feverish..
great!!
hahaha
going sleep liao...
nites

& I cried.

11:47 PM

morning was a blast!!!
even though i was a teeny weeny late...
30 min is a bit...
haha
i swear i never freaking swim out coz mainly....
IM FARKING SCARED!!!
hahaha
but actullie managed to swim out VERY VERY VERY FAR just now..
haha...
then i came back...
got very lazy dat i decided to let myself drift in...
hahahaha...
then we played in the water and all...
then we went back...
the rest went to catch a movie...
me n kian yen went off...
kian yen got celebartion n i just wanted to get back to hometown sembawang...
haha...

joined the boys in school..
i only saw them in action for 5 mins and ts done....
haha...
then we lepak2 at mac...
then i went home and ended up sleeping...
soo here i am now..
fresh and awake..
haiz...
dunno wad to do now...

=))

& I cried.

12:22 AM

this song was shared to me by my special someone...644724
enjoy the liriks...

Artist : D'Masiv
Title : Cinta Ini Membunuhku

Kau membuat ku berantakan
Kau membuat ku tak keruan
Kau membuat ku tak berdaya
Kau menolakku acuhkan diriku

Bagaimana caranya untuk
Meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
Ku sedari ku tak sempurna
Ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan
[ Cinta Ini Membunuhku lyric found on www.lirik.tv ]

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
Tak sedarkah kau telah menyakitiku
Lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
Cinta ini membunuhku

Bagaimana caranya untuk
Meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
Ku sedari ku tak sempurna
Ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

its kinda ironic he likes listening to this song....

coz hes de one whu makes me feel ths way...

haiz...

one more song...

Ada Band - Kau Auraku

Malam kehadiran cinta
Sambut jiwa baru
Telah lama kutunggu
Hadirmu disini
Namun hanya ruang semu
Yang nampak padaku
Meski sulit harus kudapatkan

Kerinduan yang mendalam
Terbitkan hasratku
Sambutlah tangan ini terima janjiku
Rasakan cinta yang tulus
Lewat aliran darahmu
Menyatu seiring dalam kasih

Kau auraku...
Oh pancarkan sepercik harapan
Datanglah merasuk men...jelma
Meleburkan cinta
Kubawa kau terbang menembus
Awan yang beriring
Kembangkan senyuman
Bagai bunga...bawa keindahan

Tak dapat kusangkali
Adanya dirimu
Yang s'lalu menaungi
Pikiran batinku
Ingin miliki hatimu
Takkan pernah
Terlepaskan
Kupersembahkan
Semua padamu

& I cried.

10:42 PM

today we went tu OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE.....
for our Canberra CEP Teambuilding 2009..
fucking fun la...
i like wen it was the intro part..
we have to exchange our names..
then if we cant remember we can make up..
i purposely find uncle norman aw...
hahaha...
then this is wad i saed....
"ello...my name is norman...i'm from CCC...im aged and i dun rmbr ppl name properly..i got 2 wives(which is TOTALLY untrue)and i have a girl...my hobby is to vomit blood and saman ppl...i also like to see girls.."the i laughed...
here are some pics...

Group Pic

To serve to strive and not to yield!

my name n me n my shades

In the boat!

twiggies and us!

me and maren(intrs)

after sista told me all that happe btwn her and bil...
i got emoish myself...
i now just fucking hate him...
i reread our convo i realise that i still am very angry wid him...
i think i shud just forgive him...
throw away wad happen a start anew chapter..
CORRECT PONYO??
hehehe
miss my TP7 alot like wad...
=(((

went to visit my hensem nephew, Muhd Rayyan
he dun like me..
mak sae he dun like fat ppl..
=(((
he slap me wid his clapper wen i kiss him bubuy..
sampai hati..

the hensem

the cute

hensem and the beast

again

my whinnie the pooh..

thats all for today..
tired...
heres a song to go along...

Celine Dion The Power of Love Lyrics:
The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling by like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake

[first chorus]
'Cause I'm your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you

Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side

[second chorus]
'Cause I'm your lady
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/bi ]
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear suddenly
The feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away

[third chorus]
'Cause I'm your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

the power of love
the power of love
the power of love

Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

& I cried.

2:08 PM

damn tired like shit now....
gosh!!
soo tired yest that i didn't blog...
i know i didn't kayak or anthing...
BUT...
i did pulled the boat out fom the shack and back again...
hahaha
my arms ache now...
haha...
i drove the aluminium yest!!!
yeah yeah yeah!!
fun like hel..
AKE 09 gonna rock the world!!
with all the wessie around confirm fun!
yeah!
hahahaha

ok out..
tired...
wanna die liao!
haha

& I cried.

11:09 AM

with a clear head and mind.....
i nvr wanted to say this but i just don't want to talk to you anymore...
i hope you read this soo you know wad jerk you are!

you yourself saed you wont ignore me..
but i nvr even did anythng and you already ignored me...
whuever wanted to bring friendship to a higher level?
i never said i wanted..
certainly not you..
i nvr wanted our friendship to be mixed with anything...
you've been there for me for the past months...
then you've ditched me just like dat?
just becoz of your own thoughts?
you've just lost a friend...
i know i'm lsing it now but i dun give a damn!!!
like how you dun a give a damn...
it happened once and i didn't want history to repeat...
but its good thing now its you who started it...
you are just like any jerks i know.
like you said...
the guy doesn't know how to treasure his friendship..
like you

& I cried.

2:15 AM

it fcuking 0223 and im not asleep...
wtf?!
just now tired and half dying now still haent sleep...
hehehe

i think wad i shud do now is hug ponyo...*but too bad..she knock out liao....
say i'm sorry..
move on wid my life...
with all the fond memories of yesterdays and tomorrows...
can't wait for thursday..
but i dunno if tf enuf ppl anot..
if enuf i wanna go swimming...
=((
bemind..
dun care,...
later then see...
must call mr toh siah...
haish

& I cried.

12:29 AM

well..
how dumb can a person get ryte?
i think ponyo is upset with me...
of course shes upset..
i was a damn chibai towards her when all she wanted to do was help me...
selfish slut!
how did i repeat the same mistake?
first wid boyfriend...
now her...
i really suck man..
damn...

i think im just gonna die..
better....
hmmm...

& I cried.

11:35 AM

woke up at 10 today!!!
hahhaa..
good nite sleep!
woke up quite heaty...
but not that sick larhs...

this song keep playing in my head..
enjoy the lyrics!

David Archuleta
Crush lyrics

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

& I cried.

9:30 PM

yest fogot to talk bout yest...

hahahahaha...
basically got Part C IMT..
being me...
i chong lorh...
then we go to nee soon chamber...
then met the easties...

soo we shoot2..
disturbed syamil (rabak)
haha..
then i shoot the SAR 21!!!
6 6 6 5!!!
haiyos....
hehe...
then the clt shoot i see onile..
then last round is shoulder shoot..
i try lorhs...
only me is 6..
the rest is is 5 4 3...
haha..
rizza better,
he shoot the top one...
kuang2...
hahahha
then abang farhan blaja me n gang LJS...
we go lepak under block then they see me tired we go home...
otw to mrt,a cat shoot out from nowhere....
my reaction was to step back and sey Woah!
Ponyo was cute..
she JUMPED away and said "oh mak kau ......"
very long n i dun rmbr coz i was laughing very hard..
hahahaha...
then we go ome...
at nite talk to sentosa and ponyo talked to 427446...
cool huh?
hahahaha

ok..
back to today...
me and ponyo go queenstown...
we finding for AKE singlets for the intructors....
then i already plan to meet sentosa..
then sentosa ajak pak tam along..
hahaha...
wanna suprise ponyo but ponyo saw them...
haiya..
busted!!!
hahahahahha....
then we walk around and around and around...
soo we deciding sooonnnn....

wee!!!
then we go to clark quay..
walk2 take picture....
fun...
then we eat KFC at marina sq...
hehe
the we go home..
followed the boys through jurong east...

here are memoirs of today...

my new model

noice

splash water at us and this what you get

nice ryte????==)))

this is tam's date for the day...

this is nice!!!

sentosa n his new gf

wad see2??

for sale

tam's new gf

me n ponyo

the new JVSS girls unit...

emoings sial!!!

for sale

the new tam

& I cried.

9:49 PM

my favourite video lol!!
hahaha
ok..lets refresh our memory on yest...

15 February 09

me and ponyo go for the war memorial thingy....
then we plan to meet at 645 soo can meet sentosa at 730 city hall...
thn we both woke up at 640...hahahaha....
shit shit!!!
nevermind....
then no beret..
had to wake dear hanna(sorrie dorrie strawberry sundae)
and borrowed her beret...
hehe..
then we go...
we go late and first person we see is sentosa...
then pak tam ask ponyo,
"asl muke merah(why your face red)?'
hehe
i laughed and smiled..
hehe...

why dont i let the pictures do the talking?
hehe

SM n Ponyo

the 5 3SGs

wessies in action

easties n sabs

melts*

me n sgt firdaus

SM n Gang

me and 2lt S M Lee

Me n SM

hehehe...
got more....
the we go marina sq makan...
hehe
where we ate the day before...
hehe

desert

sitting n waiting

eaten liao

the we go esplanade..
damn funny siah..
made a new fwen..
izuwan..
then got one part he talk n he nvr finish the i buzzed TET!
then we all laugh..
hehehe

hmmm...